hold me tight & never let me g0(:

2011-11-24T00:23:00.002+08:00

Sometimess i just wished that I have a boyfriend who never cheat on me, never lied, never looked at other girl when he know's that he have me, accept my flaws and appreciate what i've been sacrifising. I do not have to be someone I'm not, in order for you to be happy. I want you to love me the way i am, the way i joke around, i laughed, how i flip my hair, I talked, I giggled, I cried.. two years of relationship. is it fading nowwwwww? are you tired being with me? the girl you had always compliment before, now became the girl you had always been critizising.

2011-11-13T02:19:00.002+08:00

Things now had changed and kau dah bukan syahid yang aku kenal, you changed a lot. before, I'm the first one to know everything now seem that I'm the last one to get to know about everything worsen I've to find out from your friends.. sad much huh? Your feelings to me seems to fade away. Now, We seldom meet each other, we seldom talk on the phone and we dont text anymore. Is it even hard for you to reply one text message? i would be glad if you do. whenever i tried to call you, you'll get pissed and fucked up. It's not that I dont understand you.. i dont mind if I got to meet for only 5minutes, but you dont want to meet me at all. Come on, kau dah nak masuk ns, if we're not gonna spent time now. then when? I understand that you're busy that's is why I do not demand you for an 24 hours attention. As you had promises that saturday is our day to spent time together but now it decreases. Saturday skg tak free tak free, kalau keluar pun lepak ngn kwn kwn. kita tak spent time dua orang punn. kalau lepak ngn kwn kwn kau pun bukan nya kau layan aku. aku terpaksa layan diri sendiri ataupun layan kwn kwn kau. kalau gitu puas hati aku lepak jeh ngan kwnkwn kau, takya jumpa kau, be glad that even i felt this way I didn't bring up as an issue to. Doesn't meant i didn't tell you anything, I don't feel a thing. I do. You lied, You cheat, You left me alone on the road and you did something disgraceful, you scold me, you talked bad about my family, you compared me, you leave me for other girl, you hurt me alot.. but where am I? I'm still here forgiving and forgiving over and over again.. did I leave you? NO I don't wherelse i keep coming back to you despite all the shit you gave. I didn't say that I'm an angel. yes. I'm a human being I commit mistakes too I did scolded you, I'm over protective, getting angry out of insecurity, I lied about my past.. cos why? cos i do not want to lose you.. No matter how angry i am towards you, i'll put my ego aside to console you.. countless of times been coming down to your voideck at late night to console, but you do even care.. you do ever come down to meet me? no you don't.. You seems not to cared if you were to lose me. there's no trust in this r/s. I dont know if you're worth my time, worth to stay or even worth to fight for.. I'm just clapping with one hand. cos it's me who had always stand for this 2 r/s.. patience have it's limit.. I can't be all alone for this. if you did not change at all don't blame me if i have to leave.. If i have the courage to move on don't come back to me. but now.. my happiness is in you. please change.

2011-08-09T00:58:00.002+08:00

Sorry for mia-ing from blogging, didn't have the time to update my blog was too busy with twitter and facebook. Today, the second week of fasting month and today was the worst feeling i had, having monday blues, cock-up monday then the usually days i had. i did not slept for the whole day, insomnia i guess. therefore, i thought after having my pre dawn meal i could have straight away go to school as today is a half day for national day celebration. apart from that i got debared for my icss module, i have to attend the module this time, i thought we would be having icss module today unfotunately there is no lessons and i wasted my time for going to school for only 1 and half hours and the rest was just stupid performances. i got pissed and went home, was supposed to have my beauty sleep but i just cant shut my eyes and there were some people irritaed me. they have to, i was awaked all the way until i got off to work. and for buka i only had a slice of pizza. some people just could not see otherss being happy.

i wish everything will be back the way it was

2011-07-16T23:45:00.010+08:00

B[best] F[friend] F[forever]

I just miss the bff thingy the three of us used to have, used to have fun with and mostly the time we used to spent during or after school to study together teaching each other.

rmbr, those time when shira was attacked by those birds? we ran all the way to checked if she's alright, i miss that part and those weekends before me and shira going off to work we would spent for just a little while to study under the voideck at tampines. i miss those part too. Rmbr those time we used to claim that bff would always stay together.
To azhar, i'm sorry i should'nt have liked you in the first placed, i should'nt put any hopes on you. I would rather things stay as being bff not more than that. i know i hurt you too much but please if only i could turned back the time i would'nt want things to happened like this, i would want things to stay like the first day we met in school as friends and be you bff . I let you off from trouble as i gave alot of it. i know now everything mean nothing to you, i know you hate me for everything i had done or caused you. i'm sorry my friend )':

To shira, I should'nt had neglected you, should'nt had made you feel left out being with us. i should'nt have let you walked alone until now you have found your friends, i'm sorry for not being there, i'm sorry i didn't showed that i cared.
I'm sorry i'm the caused of everything. i've ruined our friendship. I just wish that everything would be back to the way it was (':

sincerely,

from: [f]orever, durrah (':

2011-07-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

hey to you fvck it,

Stop all your fcuk up attitude, stop being so rude towards me, be glad that i am still patience enough with everything you thrown at me. be glad that whenever i said "i want to move on" aren't for real. Even when i said it for real my heart just could'nt bear to leave. life with you was hard i do not know why but i still choose to hold on. Why aren't you appreaciating? you had always think that million girls out there are better than i am, so why don't you just leave and find one? You took me for granted, my sincerity for what i have done for you throughout our relationship. you had been looking out for girls out there and keep comparing them with me, If you truly love me, you would'nt compare. the problem with you is that you had always wanted a "perfect girl". NONE EXITS BOY. i know u will coutinue searching until you find your dream girl and will let me go, you're treating as if i'm just a pillar for you to rest. boy, just what do you want?

Maharaja Lawak - Minggu 10 - Sepah

2011-06-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

ayah told me to watch this maharaja lawak, he told me that this video are all very funny. since boredom strike then i watched. after so many times viewing i still could not get it which part is funny? (:

Dadali - Disaat Aku Mencintaimu

2011-06-27T02:06:00.000+08:00

(':

Kotak - Masih cinta

2011-06-27T02:02:00.001+08:00

i love you, never leave me please :')

2011-06-24T04:08:00.001+08:00

saya cuba nak lupakan awak tapi tak boleh , macam mana ? )':. whatever i do each i'll think of you. syahidsyahidsyahid.

motivation

2011-06-14T00:58:00.002+08:00

Please lah durrah, MOVE ON! MOVE ON! MOVE ON! sampai bila nak macam nie? why do you need to stick with the guy that does not pay attention to you ? someone who doesnt treat you appropriately, someone who doesnt treat you special? come on la durrah, a years plus does not mean anything if he does not love you for who you are if he had treated you unfairly. you could build up this 1 year pluss r/s with any guy that truly love's you and treat you well. all you need is time. time to heal, time to move on. be strong and get over him . he had already admit to you that he does not want to treat you special because of your past, he admire other girl even when his with you the starting of your r/s . what more do you want ? he himself admit that whatever you do, your sacrifises he does not appreaciate it at all. is this the guy that you really love? even if you do love him, whatever for? you're just wasting your fvuking precious time.. throught the year you have been telling yourself to be patience but till when ? until he leave you for someone else is it ? by then you will be crying like a stupid girl over and over again. come on, he's not even worth it for you. kuat kan semangat. lupakan dia tak guna sayang orang yang tak hargai diri kita. insyallah boleh :). amin :)

2011-06-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

Meaningful as i used this to wipe my tear's away, :') .

syahid's ownage

2011-06-09T23:56:00.002+08:00

You regard yourself as my brother and i even treated you as one of my own, but i didnt know that you could said things behind my back, I'm totally dissapointed with you. i dont mind if you're not gonna listen to me, but the things you said to him was hurtful. i would be happy each time i saw you. Before i thought you were the most caring, most loving abg i ever had. But no longer my abang, yes, i would still respect you as a brother but not the same way as how i used to feel. nahhh, it's okay. i dont care anyymore. what matters now is I PATCHED BACK WITH BELOVED BOYFRIEND. I love you syahid :)

2011-06-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

alhamdulilah, this is what i had for supper. :)

woke up at 930am today, had breakfast, lunch, skip dinner and this is supper .

School was tiring especially when it comes to napfa test just now.. i was excited to complete the 5 stations and get 'A' for all the stations. As for 2.4km run i walked all the way, as i dont care much for it. haha.

after school took bus 12 to pasir ris interchange thought of going off early but i was hungry, therefore bought my food at ananas cafe and met tun at manhattan fish along with ben and chitra. i sat there until 6+ pm, was lazy to go home but i had to cos i stand being too sleepy. reached home wash my feet and then sleep tak larat nak mandi.

woke up and 9pm , bathed and facebook. okay now i'm tired .. i want to sleep :) gdnight.

btw, to u.

i love you more than anyone else could . :')

MUHAMMAD SYAHID :') 10th April 2010.

2011-06-06T13:57:00.004+08:00

Muhammad Syahid..

when i'm with you at times i do felt unfair as i thought that you're mistreating me, i didn't cared much as how you felt. what i think of each time is the bad deeds you had done towards me, i wanna be free from all those heartbreaks you've given me but now when i lose you, i realised how much you meant to me. i realised the bright side of what you have done, the greatest boyfriend i ever had, i had so much fun and enjoyed spending all those times with you, i comfortable whenever i'm with you, i feel very secure when you're there. when i lose you now i felt that i had lost everything in life cos you are my life that i spend with every day and night. life had been terrible without you. before, i had always felt that you are not able to be my listening ears cos you didnt gave me any advices when i'm complaining anything to you. NOW, when you're gone when i have any problems, there's no one i could complaint to. even if there is they would not be the same as how i used to complaint to you. although you had not been reacting or giving advices to me but the least you could do is to listen and when you didnt even listen altleast i felt that i dont need anyone, i only need you. you're always there to cheer me up that's the reason why i had never gave up to be patience with you. each time i need an acompany you will always be there , i miss us. i miss being with you. syahid, i'm sorry for the hurtful words. i love you still. please :'). remember all those times we used to spend ? everything i do is with you, everything i tried is from you. i'm sure same goes to you right ? all i could do is to cried all my heart out hoping that you will be back. i love you syahid.. :')

2011-06-04T01:19:00.007+08:00

i'm sorry for the thing i've done, i didnt know we could end this up just like that, as you can see syahid, my love for you is very strong, i love you more than i could love myself. everywhere you go, i'm always right at the back of you, everytime you walk i would always be walking by your side holding your hand, every single saturday you spend time by playing soccer i will always be there to watched.
15 january 2010 the day i knew you, 10th april 2010 the day we been together, after all those happiness ups and downs we end it on 4th june 2011. :(.

i still love u. i do.

hari ini hari malas saya :/

2011-06-03T16:32:00.004+08:00

sumpah hari ini mendak gila!

i'm lazy to attend school today.

28++ misscall given to me early in the morning

from my dearest classmate.

sweet kan dorg satu satu kejut bangun untuk sekolah?

tapi i switch off my alarm clock and switch off my phone to silent mode.

sorry , seriously malas nak pergi school. heh (Y).

malas nak keluar rumah even keluar bilik pun.

haha. boleh eh gitu?

so all day long at home in my room.

tmr fiona's engagement day at jrg west. :)

so basically, that's the only plan for tmr and as for sunday

going to meet my dearest babygee.

a short post will do, i do not have anything in mind to speak out.

okay, will update again some other time.

2011-04-30T02:36:00.003+08:00

you put a smile on me,

you made me laugh when i'm down,

you were there to hear my stories.

you like me the way i am ,

i'm happy to have you with me :)

like a G6

2011-04-30T02:22:00.006+08:00

sumpah aku rindu korang giler babi, okay aku tahu korang pikir yang aku dah lupakan korang tapi sebenarnya tak. i miss those time the 6 of us together through thick and thin together , plus conflicts all. although kiter semua dah tak sama lagi , tetap hati aku maseh ngn korang. i miss my ladies spirit :DD.

2011-04-19T23:30:00.003+08:00

hey baby looked up!

boo! i miss you :)

i love your hair.

i love your smile.

i love the way you talk.

i love the way you walk.

i love you when you cry??

i love just the way you are :)

2011-04-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

why cant you appreaciate me while i'm still here with you, what will you do if one day i'm gone and at that point of time will you still looked out for me or her ? life is just unfair. when you are doing the right thing nobody sees, when you show you care none will appreaciate but if you commit a small mistake you will get into a big mess.

2011-04-08T02:13:00.003+08:00

somehow, i think i have a crush on you.

kepala saya sudah pusing, tapi mata masih degil. okay, i decided to blog first before I'll get to sleep. on the 10th is our 1st anniversary. 11 April 1st day of school. i cant imagine how will my first day of school look like, repeating it again like how i went through last year, but the different is this year schooling without my girlfriends by my side. although i have to repeat again nitec this year but my education does not stop here. I'm still glad i have the opportunity to get back to school again. i want to do better this time round cos i feel the way it is without schooling. so ya.. as for boyfriend he is going to take up private o level in mathematics only in order for him to get into polytechnic. i do not know to explain uh, but still he have to serve the country first before going to poly. wish the best for us :D. as tmr work is going to be busy,tiring & conflict. i can predict it cos tmr is FRIDAY, plus the last day of that stupid promotion. i'll be working at 6 till closing, arsehole ! 4 working hours plus penat die mak oii. okay i think i shall stop here . kepala dah pening. :D goodnight.

i'm sorry i'm not your best girl.

2011-04-02T01:45:00.005+08:00

- muhammad syahid,

i've never ever felt the way of l0ve toward a guy not until i met you. i know i am not a perfect for you like how you want me to be. i did tried to change but to you i'm still the same. everything i did was meant for you. i do not know what else could i do to please you. i 'm trying to put on my best attitude now . we broke up, i cant manage to control myself. 3 days i suffered , 3 days without sleeping continously working every morning. where have you been? why didnt you called me? it hurt me alot when i got to know you was contacting with someone else, i dont not want to elaborate , maybe at that point of time you dont know what you are doing. you're just confused. i forgive whatever you have done. we are back together now i wish the best for our relationship. and i'm hoping that you will appreaciate me from now. how hurtful you can be no matter how you have ever insulted me it wont change my love i have for you. this is part and parcel of relationship, patience is the key to happiness. in every relationship is the same there's always an unwanted hurtful moments which happened out of control. besides, every human being deserve a second chance. i love you syahid :')

2011-03-25T14:17:00.002+08:00

I'M STRONG ! :D I'M STRONG ! every hurtful words from you every tears i shed represent that i'm strong..

ily :)

2011-03-11T23:57:00.003+08:00

Night ride at seletar with boyfriend and friends :), nice bike huh ? our friend's bike. the bike behind belong to boyfriend.

hey kamu,

i'm so thankful to god that i know you,:) the bestest ever boyfriend that willing to sacrifise everything for me even the little2 things. You gave me strenght, advices, you were by my side on every step i take, in everything i do & every decision i made. every where i go there's always you. i nagged at you and you would always listened although i know inside your heart you cursed me . haha. no matter how busy you are when you're packed with your own schedule you would spent a little time for me everyday without failed althought it could only last for an hour or two. syahid, i know we cant be perfect for each other nobody does but i'm still glad with the life i'm having now, with you :).

2011-01-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

hey readers.

it's been a long time i didnt update right cox i'm super duper busy, so basically for all the courses yang belum graduate goodluck with school tommorow. i miss school heaven loads ! now i've been wondering what will i do without schooling ? i do not want to stop studying, i do not want my journey to stop here with a nitec certificate only. it wont make me go that far, my gpa points is really really bad . i only got 2.0 p0ints. tommorow i'm going to ite simei and try to appeal for h.nitec course. pray hard that i could get in! btw, i had quit the job at mfm iluma and now i've transfer myself to mfm whitesands which is in pasir ris. i love the outing there , OMG BTW, BABY IS GOING TO NS SOON !!!!!!!!!!!! in a few months i think. gonna miss him damn badly !! btw happy 9th monthsary to you darling . i loveee youuuuuuuuuu !

2010-12-16T19:57:00.001+08:00

do you know how much i dislike her? I hate her not because i'm simply jealous you've been saying good things about her to me evnthough i've asked. I find that you're comparing. She cook, she's soft, she's not rebel. Do you know how i feel? I feel that i'm worthless. I'm hurt when you said this to me "do i think i'm being the best by doing evrything for you?" i'm just not perfect syahid.

2010-12-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

2010-10-13T21:18:00.003+08:00

Why would things happened in this way. If this had not happened in the first place things would get better now, no offence to what i'm expressing. why must it be me ??? why must things turned out this way ? why wont you accept me ? i'm deeply in love with a guy but now things turned out worst when he got to know everything .. i want you ..... i want you to loved me for who i am .

never loved

2010-10-04T17:50:00.002+08:00

i'm angry cox you gave me too much excuses. i'm not angry for not coming to your C. i'm just angry that when you cant get it, you're like trying to avoid from meeting me. if you dont want to meet me just say so, cox that really show how much you never loved me. well , thank you for proving. :)

2010-09-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

why do love pains ?
-because its hurt.

why do love hurts ?
-love does not hurt.

why does love really do?
-love is when someone cares so much for someone else they would do anything at all to make them happy, even if thats mean to leave them.

2010-09-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

picture taken during our raya outing. sweet kan sweeet sangat2 . although the ending part of the day was -___- , okay i dont want to mention , but it's not a very good day for me and you, we have our own reasons. but baby, i'm sorry for giving you attitude ever since in the morning, i tear apart when i saw you cried, i'm the worst girlfriend, i know. (but for that day aja eh) . im sorry boyfriend. didnt mean to hurt you. saya sayang kamu okay? *jangan nangis lagi kay?* "nanty u nangis i nangis jugak" . hehe . :))

you will always be my baby ♥

2010-09-27T22:27:00.002+08:00

to my special someone.

im waiting for your call. cant wait to be with you tmr, i'm missing you terribly, take good care of yourself at work. rmbr i'll always be here and there for youu. i love my syahid .

2010-09-27T20:33:00.002+08:00

i loveeee myy BOYFRIEND! .

tehee. tayang syahid banyak banyak ! in a happy mood, i dont know why. suddenly being so random. today, early in the morning 9.30am boyfriend wake me up and asked me to get ready to meet him. so i did . reached at pasir ris around 11am , slacked at his house and then we went to tampines. shopping ! bought a blouse at cotton on and "B" at sheer romance. boyfriend accompanied me. it was quite a short time but i enjoyed being with him each time and each day. i want to be with him forever , the only guy and the only someone whom i'm closed to. please dont break my heart. i want us to be forever. :) . impatiencely waiting for 10/10/10

2010-09-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

a love story starts today and end tomorrow. a fairytales remain as fairytales , there's no happy endings in a real world, smile for a minute and cry for an hour. got loved for a day and got dump the next day.

2010-09-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

she's not a bitch but she's acting like one.

:/

2010-09-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

i feel shit :/ . i hate being like this. sometimes i reflect why should i always head to all your rules & regulation when you ignore mine.

2010-09-20T19:50:00.003+08:00

I'm not as super happy and cheerful as i was before, I've lost 3 friends in just two particular days. firstly was my classmate firdaus, i didn't expect because of an picture could make us lost our friendship and worst not even talking at all right now, he wouldn't even say hi or reply my "hi" to him. he ignore me totally and there's no more jokes or laughter in class. a picture we took in class during our pie phase test, it was quite was closed and my boyfriend just cant accept it . fine, i understand boyfriend feelings and must took care of his heart furthermore like he said that i must obey his rules.

i had a guy best friend for 10years and everything is gone now, its all started from an stupid post in face book "heartbroken" i do not want to elaborate further, but somehow my boyfriend just doesnt like the way you had commented and after all this thing had happened you told me to choose either you or my bf ? you said that i do not know what a bestfriend means but if you were to think enough or better if you were a real bestfriend you wouldnt asked me to choose and make things difficult for me. you're not always there for me whenever i needed any help. therefore, i dont see any reason for me to choose you. i know how you felt after i was not on your side but you must understand my situation too. lastly you've blocked me from facebook and didnt even want to talk to me anymore :') . thanks for this 10years of friendship which had gone down the drain .

it was an unexpected thing i've did to u this evening , i'm sorry for ive done. i'm just totally pissed off with you, for all the patience i had been through ever since you entered in my life and became one of my girlfriends, i appreaciate the friendship we had eversince ive entered in this ite life. i just cant accept the raising of your voice towards me, your ignorance. this is what you did to me. which i've totally lost my patience and shouted at you. however i know i shouldnt slap you in public although im angry i should have controlled it. i know its my fault and im sorry .

to boyfriend, i have been with you for almost half a year through. i've lost two friends for you. i dont put any blames to you somehow it was my fault too. but dear do you know how much i care for you ? in our r/s there's quarrel and conflicts but do you see how much im willing to change to you? i know you've been patience all along and i've been sacrificing my everything for you, my time, my school, my work, my friends & my family all for you. we've been through alot, i hope you could see all that infact i love you more than anything else. i love you bie :)

2010-09-19T20:05:00.002+08:00

i just dont know what's wrong with you. why have you been asking me this kinda question . i really hate being in this situation. you dont know how i feel . i wanna be with you every time i open i open and shut my eyes.

2010-09-12T23:55:00.003+08:00

phhhfft . aku tatawu aku patut mrh atau tidak, nie bukan aku tak kesah kan kau ataw tak paham kan kau uh, tapi cube tgk eyh tiap2 kali aku nk otp ngan kau ader jeh alasan kau, okay fine aku paham uh kau busy. tapi jgn janji uh , imagine kau janji nak call aku tibe mase kau call bobal 5min. aku dari 2 jam tungu kau pnye call tibe mase bobal 5 min . sape tak binget ? okay finee. itu aku tak kesah . kau janji2 nk call last2 aku call kau tidur lah aperh lah . kau pernah cakap kat aku yg kau tak suke otp lame2 bosan . eh , klau kau tak suka bebual ngan aku , kau ckp uh tanak bobal jgn bagi alasan uh . walau mcm mane kau tidur siang tetap kau bgn lmbt . apeh kau buat ? aku call kau pkai num aku kau tak angkat aku pkai num lain bru angkat. aku dh malas nak gdh2 ngan kau . is not me and my love that you want, is other thing . you think for yourself what do you want from me actually. i hate changes in you. maybe you think that you have the looks that all girls want, therefore you dont need me. okay, i'll follow with the flow.

selamat hari raya ♥♥

2010-09-12T21:05:00.011+08:00

fiona and me :)
kak farah says "biler makcik ngn anak sedare dh jumpe tangge pun berasap"

half of sadiah family :) the other half gone home ready.

the best cousin.

me & kak ain :)

hello readers .

selamat hari raya. raya this year mcm tak menarik, i've not been going out for two days. cume 1st day aje. okay selamat hari raya. mls nak post .

2010-09-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

bebual tak pakai otak. haiyaaa . geramnyer aku ngan nie lelaki yang satu nie. mcm mane tak marah cox u bebual very unacceptable.

2010-09-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

sial nyer jantan . apeh kau pnyer maksud sial cakap tuh mxq kat fb msg ? pukimak kau. aku tak kenal kau pun sia. dirty minded . knnbccb.

i love her

2010-09-07T22:30:00.003+08:00

hey readers.

im tremendously happy. out with murnie :D . tak pergi sekolah tapy shopping pergi :D . huhu. i had a great time with ya todayyyy. its a very long tyme tak spent time dua orang gynie kn murnie ? thanks taw belikan aku clip and nail polish and it's pink in colour . i loike ! :DD . tahnks bie. i had a great time and gila gila like what we did in those secondary school time . thanks layankan kerena aku . pegi sini sana carik kasut. and yeah i've bought raya shoe at bata . charles & keith takder satu kasut pun yg menarik perhatian . last year nyer kasut lagy best ! . hehe . okay . much much love murnie . terima kaseh :P, and yes to my babylove tha nks belikan i hair dye . i love it :D

friends love.

2010-09-06T00:01:00.006+08:00

hey readers .

this is the picures i got from mira's blog.

pictures we took during our so called doing "project" but end up we slack :D

i simple like it. idk why stupiid blogger suddenly cant upload more. argh ! blogger datang bulan agaknyer. knnbccb. tsk.

btw, where's boyfriend?

2010-09-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

even if you ignore me, even if you change that would not change the fact that i love you.

2010-09-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

i hate the way you lied

2010-09-02T01:44:00.001+08:00

saya sudah lama putus dengan dia, saya pun dah ada yang baru . kenapa awak semua mesti cakap cakap lagy ? perkara itu semua sudah lama berlalu . saya pun dah happy ngan relationship saya skg walaupun ada part yg sakitkan hati saya tetap sayangkan r/s saya sekarang :)

2010-09-02T01:41:00.000+08:00

saya rindukan awak, saya tatawu kenape saya asyik teringat ingat kan awak.

2010-09-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

i'm totally dissapointed of the things that happened today , but still thanks to ayu smookie kins , fahmi and nadia stubborn for the karaoke-ing time , i had fun through out of it . thanks :) . to you people who dissapointed me, i'm totally pissed off with you guys. next time jgn janji kalau tak boleh ditepati. korang pk kelakar eyh ? you guys have like bring hope in me, kalau korang taknak kluar next time cakap, takmu buang masa aku okay . okay guys , let see. what happened today. firstly, my dearest boyfriend keluar with his classmate, and dont want to bring me out. cox nak blaja dari pagi sampai ker malam. (okay understood) . secondly, i made plans with my kwn kwn primary school, ader yg ckp tak boleh lah aperhlah . in the end me & this two monyet agreed to kluar with me , butttttt. bile keluar ngan dorang , dorang ader hal. abeh they left me laone . abeh aku nie ape sia ? sorang sorang cam bodoh, then texted boyfriend , mengadu nasib . but then got to know boyfriend going to grandlink KARAOKE. yerlah kan blaja dari pagi smpai MALAM ! . you know the two monyet ader hal, and i'm at payar lebar too . boyfriend is there at grandlink apeh lah salahnyer if he tarik me from them ? as i'm alone . but no. he enjoyed himself karaoke-ing and ignored me . just how can i not be that pissed off with you ? the two monyet was too stressed out . and i did cried. mestilah ! sapa kan tak geram . abeh dah tuh dah jauh jauh pergi srh orang buka burger ramly . pkir klaka peh . and then came ayuu smookie kins and then kiter gy buka sesame. selamat ayuu ader if not i'm gonna be a buka alone . without anybody care . okay skg aku pissed off .

2010-08-30T16:43:00.004+08:00

i just dont know what's wrong with me, is just that everything you do makes me feel angry, i get bored easily. i think negatively always, maybe i just cant accept the fact that we both are not like before , everything seems to change. you do not have time for me and now you tend to look for friends more than me. i started to think in other ways and started changing to. ya' allah. please help me. i dont wanna remain this way . i dont want this r/s to turn shaky, i want it to be as sweet like before. i love you and just cant bare to lose you please. i do not want to think that we're not meant for each other, i dont want to ever feel this love is fading, i dont wanna get hurt anymore. i wanna have a happy ending r/s.

2010-08-30T16:37:00.001+08:00

aku sudah bosan dengan hidup. i need someone to talk to , really. i dont understand you ? or you're the one that doesnt understand me? or maybe we dont understand each other, or should i say we're not meant to be together.

2010-08-29T20:58:00.002+08:00

hye readers,

i just came back from bugis with dearest fafa fruitella.
okay great! bought earrings the same one as fafa's. today was supposed to be a day off at home but since fafa wanted me to accompany her to bugis, i just follow with the flow :)
and yes to you fafa last long with safuan , :) me and her ate long john for lunch as both of us is having our red month:D, but starting tmr i could fast already :) yeah!.
and yes yes yes, where the hell are you my dear boy? why didnt you call me to check on me ? why didnt you called to tell me where are you going? why do you left me without any clues? i do not know what to say anymore. speechles though.

2010-08-29T01:22:00.003+08:00

my heart is still boilling with feelings of anger , i'm not throwing tantrum at you nor i'm being mean . Actually i pun tk smpai hati nak buat you macam gini, this is just not me to treat you this way , but you made me to. i'm hurt with what you've said. okay see. i know i'm in the wrong but cant you just speak in a nicer way? a way where you couldnt hurt me . a way which i'll take note and make me more understandable. okay . i nie terlalu kongkong u, i know for the facts that you have family and friends . but listen here without you who the hell i'm gonna be with ? if you read this this , all i'm going to say you is i'm sorry for doing this to you , but i think i needa little change between things. i'm sorry.

2010-08-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

It's had already started to fade .

all alone

2010-08-27T19:48:00.002+08:00

i'm totally down right now, blogger is now where i express my feelings, i feel that there's no one out there who are willing to be there for me. there's no one to share . i feel all alone . totally dissapointed . i dont know who you are right now, you're not the same old person i knew. i down .

2010-08-27T15:21:00.002+08:00

i'm being patience.
trying to be the best out of the best , cant you just see it ?

2010-08-27T15:07:00.001+08:00

Unappreciated .

dissapointed.

Worthless.

a feeling of mixture.

2010-08-27T15:00:00.003+08:00

IRRITATING

the word that you never used to me and now you used it, you're the same like others. how i've been hurt and being left out from people and now it's your turn. thank you.

i need you

2010-08-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

i need you. i need you. i Need you. i need you. i need you.

only god know how much i need you right now.

but i'm feeling so down. call me , i need you

i bet you dont care

2010-08-26T21:42:00.003+08:00

should i be angry ? well. i dont know . let say, when you're damn seriously ill but no matter how ill you are , no matter how you almost wanted to faint & no matter how hard you cant get up from your bed , you're still there for that someone though you're sicked you're still willing to get up to meet up that someone. well, this is not that i'm bringing up this small matter. i dont want to be bad i dont want you to think that i do not care for you. eventhough i'm sicked without failed evertime i woke up i gave you a call to check on your whereabouts. i still got the initiative to find you, but what hurt me the most is when you never bothered to looked for me or even gave me a called when you're awake. i know you're sicked too , i dont asked for much, is it difficult to dial my number and say you're awake now? you told me you've just got up that's a lie my dear . you're awake from just now, i knew that.

2010-08-26T20:30:00.001+08:00

2010-08-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

2010-08-26T20:18:00.002+08:00

sicked :/

2010-08-26T19:39:00.002+08:00

hello to all :D

hey, how is everybody feelings? well, i'm still not feeling very well . OMG , i'm coughing like hell tekak ni kering sangat sangat till i batuk then keluar darah pasal panas. arghh. dugaan . okay two days straight i've been sleeping for the whole day, whole day people. morning till night. too bad love is sicked too , jangkit from me uh . haha . i got a week off from work :), i want to get recover faster, i'm sicked off eating medicine, haish. in another couple of days time school is going to be re-open soon. :(,

ibu had promise me nak ajak gy geylang today untuk beli baju raya tapi last minute tak jadi. so, maybe some other time. :(

sleep tight ;)

2010-08-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry about yesterday dearest, i'll promised never to disturbed your sleep again . haha :)

running away :/

2010-08-25T00:45:00.004+08:00

sometimes, it's easy to find someone to laugh with you but it's difficult to find someone that could cry with you . people, if you were to call or text me for the night and you couldnt get through me please excuse me , i wanna switch off my phone cox i wanna took a long sleep & wanna have my rest in peace. thank you :')

2010-08-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

hey readers.

i'm so damn bored, i just dont know what to update, i'm having SORE THROAT .wth ! pedih rasanyer tekak , should i go to work tmr ? :(. i want to call love but he's watching movie . i want to talk to you bie . i want to find new job seriously. :/

2010-08-24T19:31:00.001+08:00

well. i dont think you understand.

stress :/

2010-08-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

hey guys, i think for now i'm gonna use prepaid back no more using bill. i've checked my account balance it's already $223. :/ futhermore with alot of thing i need to pay. yet dad had quit his job like again, raya dah nak dekat still i have not gotten my money for hari raya nyer baju. :'(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRA

2010-08-24T18:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NUR AMIRAH BINTE RADEWAN,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE . DONT BE SAD ON YOUR BIRTHDAY, I KNOW THING HAVE TURNED OUT NOT WELL ON YOU PARTICULAR DAY YESTERDAY. WHATEVER IT IS HE IS STILL YOUR DAD, I KNOW YOU'RE ASHAMED, DAH LAH , JANGAN PIKIR PIKIR KAN SGT KAY ? ILY STILL. SORRY FOR NOT BEING THERE YESTERDAY. SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN YANG KE TUJUH BELAS TAHUN :)

:))) great :)

2010-08-24T17:48:00.003+08:00

hey readers

I'm back updating sorry for not updating this few days, I've not been feeling very well, I've been having high fever ever since on last Sunday. poor me. hees, on last Saturday 21 August, went to bazzar geylang to buka with love and his family for the first time at Broadway "something something", ha ha. i cant really recalled what's the name of the place where we buka. but sure thing i remember it's started with Broadway. *blush* . how can i say about love family ? they were all cute especially his mum, kecik orangnyer. :) there's alot of thing to talk about . cuma saya aja yang malu malu. love dad and my uncle are friends , that's so co-incidence right ? kecik kan singapore and love ever told me that my stepmum pernah datang his house to karaoke dulu, my uncle pernah maen bola sesame with him and his dad. love dad look so fierce from the outside but friendly indeed. i sit still tak gerak banyak takot clumsy, people know me well how clumsy i am. gaah. his youngest sister syasya cute sgt sgt ader dimple :)), love younger brother mcm abg abg berg. haha. after buka salam his mum make our move and we all walked to our seperated ways, me and love went to walk around just the both of us, his family went to city plaza untuk tgk kuih kuih. after which, we proceed to kallang skygarden slacked till about 1030pm. and then back to home, thanks love for the day. ily :).

on the midnight at 12am i felt really giddy . i wonder why , the morning i woke up i got high fever for two day, :/ . and now fever gone but saw eyes . haiyaa. get well soon to me . :)

:(

2010-08-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

i did cry a little cox i miss you.

speechless for words

2010-08-19T22:09:00.003+08:00

hollaa :)

this is the time when I've decide to used my tumblr back and i wanna ditch my blog, but the thing is i forgot my password for tumblr. wtf! . okay, i give up i tried countless of time re-login for tumblr, but email or password is incorrect. facebook been the same all day, nothing much all boredom. how i miss my previous account, but hey i still hold on to love words do not reactivate my old account back just share account with him to avoid misunderstanding and conflict. i doesn't really care actually about my previous account it is just a bloody shit facebook account it aren't for real, this is what we called cyber world. i stick to my promises aight love ? :D

i've became a bookworm now spending all time reading novel, it's all started from mira and same goes to all colleague at work. it became an addiction to everyone now. HA HA .

and yes , thank to love for waking me up for my pre-dawn meal today, just imagine there's nobody at home was awake , love called me at 530am and up. haha . i'm sorry love for spouting nonsensical words to you though you the one waking me up. i cant really recalled actually it was already morning and it's time for pre dawn meal. after you told me that it's already 530am i think, i rush and ate my food i quickly drink a glass of plain water , bace niat and then called you and off to sleep till mira wake me up for work.

and what a pity when i got home i had to break fast alone :( . haiyaa.

that's all for today, that irritating bro of mine been bugging me to let him used the lappy.

-rara tyqaa.

just read

2010-08-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

hey readers :D

So where should i start ? i think I'll start from the date 14august last Saturday.

14 august - 14 august last four days ago, it's a saturday i didnt went out with love cox he had to work :(, i was working at 11 to 4pm on that day, after which i went to buka at nenek house. all cousin was there especially fiona ! imy her . after buka went back home :D

15 August - last 3 days , it's on Sunday. i was out with dearest murnie, ayie and love :D. went to bazzar geylang . saw a nice kebaya panjang and it cost $120 , mahal kan ? so roamed around geylang . i dont really admired all the kebaya indon. i like more in kebaya melayu but the thing is kebaya melayu is much more expensive. gahhh, but seriously i want it! dearest murnie, ayie, love and me planned to wear the same colour code for hari raya. turquoise? :D. we went to break fast at hawa restaurant. i agreed with dearest murnie post, part yang kite lupe bayar duit , it is so embarrassing, imagine all of us walk out the from the restaurant and we forgotten to pay, one of the guy working there called out for us and we came back sited on the same table, feeling so so embarrassed. :P, after paying we left that place and continued roaming around geylang. ayie and murnie went back at 8pm as ayie have probation, after they left me and love cotinued roaming around and love bought his samping . its white in color, "i yang tawarkan you sampai $2o , cakap aperh bie?" sampai pekedai tuh ingat i kakak you kn ? hehe . after we bought samping i bought some food and proceed to sengkang . slacked under my voideck till like about 11pm .

16 August - last 2 days, monday. i cant recalled what i did on monday, but sure thing i remember i was working that day from 11am to 4pm and it was not busy at all. i knew i was lying on the floor on the phone with love in the store room while azia and atikah sitting on the floor at bar chatting with each other, after worked i went to visit love at his workplace till 9pm and i went home :D.

17 August - yesterday. tuesday. i woke up early in the morning at 9am. at 10am in the morning fafa. fiqa and mira came my house to complete our project work. pm1 about travel giude. half of it completed . they was at my house till 4pm , we chatted and after everything has completed we went to compass point. roamed around there. got our group name "awesome foursome" . :D . after roaming around compass point all of us went back home. at night i went to terawih with love at pasir ris. after terawih spent time with love till 11pm :D

18august - did nothing . was tired and bored

okay that all for today . i wanna bath :D

work :D

2010-08-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

hello people :D

updating about today, nothing interesting actually, i woke up in the morning and realised that i was already 8+ cant recalled the time but i knew i was late to school, gahhh ! like again . no matter how early i slept i just cant wake up for 8am lesson, therefore went to pasir met love. okay today was kinda lazy, saya tak puasa . met love slack till 3pm, wahh ! jumpeh dher jeh gila gila, joke , smile and laughter. yang bestnyer takde gaduh , bagus bagus :D as he nee to get ready untuk buka luar with his family i went back home.

reached home told ibu i did not fast cox saket perut *wink*. ate pisang goreng and epok epok, got changed and off to workplace. okay best sampai betul betul tak lambat exactly 6pm, working was fun especially working with all the good people around the couples, atikah, haslan and the manager was davelyn . fun but busy, semua tak sempat buka. chey buka sey padehal tak puasa. for a second i thought everybody was fasting except for me but when i looked back semua ader energy giler babi. semua tak buka pun tak pasal, i asked each and every one of them "puasa ker tak" their replied was yes they're fasting so i was ashamed to tell that i'm not. but check check bila tyme nak balek keje semua reveal each and everyone tak puasa except haslan. haha . closing ended around 10+, slacked till 11pm and then to home, tommorw working againg at 11am . i'm waiting for syahid to call me ~ wee. hehe . okay people . got to go now :D .

atiqah durrah .

tsk

2010-08-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

pissed off ! nak balik balik jeh lah , cakap tadi nak balik abeh tak balik balik . binget peh ! tak habes habes kat rc,rc, rc . wth ! tsk !

(Y)(Y)

2010-08-12T21:01:00.002+08:00

hello Readers :D

okay, sekarang saya sedang bosan sangat sangat boyfriend pergi terawih. good baby .

love always nag and kept asking me to solat and tadi received last text msq from him, he asked me "bie, dah solat isyak?". this is what baby tell me ever since yesterday "bulan puasa you tak boleh pkai skirt pergi sekolah , nanti puasa you batal start dari besok i nak you pkai seluar" and "malam nie i tak kesah i nak u pergi terawih, kalau tak.." haha, kalah bapak bapak punya nasihat eyh . haha . special thanks to baby for guiding me. ilyb.

so basically, now i'm supposed to finished up my budget and gnatt chart for the proposal , doing it half way & end up i'm blogging. it's has been days i had not submitted this proposal till it had gone over the submission day. haiyaa, stop procrastinating atiqah and do it now ! i'm really glad that my course is only 1year therefore we could finished everything earlier but to think back why cant it be in two years ? i'm still enjoying and i think time has gone too fast for me to enjoy, so now i need to buck up. if classes could start after 11am i would have attend all lesson :), i just cant wake up early . :'(, too bad. thanks to mira amirah for waking me up every single morning :), but i'm sorry i cant help myself up, whenever i wake i felt like sleeping back , and so i did sometimes (if classes start at 8). there's a superglue gum into my eyes.

okay besok schooling plus kerja, besok buka with colleague, :( . i want to buka at home. haha. takperh in need of money, love been nagging again kept asking me to work,work and work. yelah he wanna teach me not to take money from parents work more tampung hidup sendiri. :). but i really need to find new job, gaji siket banget. even some of my pizzahut colleagues wanted to quit cox it cant even cover our own expenses. truetruetrue. please recommend , i desperately need job, i want retail but i dont want watson pangkar habes =.=. huhu.

and yes dari pada smlm been talking to love about our colour code for hari raya, love want white but i want brown, love want turquoise but i want brown, love want pink but i want brown. see how he kept changing colour code while i'm sticking to one which is BROWN ! , hehe . and i got really pissed off with him, he kept changing his mind then i told him this "u pkai colour lain, i pkai lain uh. kan senang. hmph!" hahaha , fake lah, takan lain lain kan . kata kata binget aja :P. btw, love is on his way home . standby jap lagy on the phone . ilyb :D . okay dah malas nak blog lagy . besok continue . :D

peace be upon you . atiqah durrah

2010-08-12T18:59:00.002+08:00

hey readers :D

so basically now i've just got home , waiting for buka :D , i just cant wait to eatttttt . lagy 15 minutes aja. endure atiqah :), i was late to school early in the morning due to overslept but luckily mira texted me and told me that class was canceled. i went back to sleep, terlajak and didnt attend beo. so met love at pasir ris interchange, took bus 12 and bus-ed down to school, reached school Around 12pluss lunch time, slacked outside cafe one with love till about 1pm and went back to class. school ended at 4pm . went to tampines we bought kuih muih for buka and then off to home . :D
i just dont why day by day you kept making me angry, i dont know why i'm too much obssesed into you , i dont know why i became too over sensitive over a lilttle things, i dont know why jealousy occur over a lil thing, i hate every of the girls you talk to, you smile at and worst i hate girls whom you ever love before. i made you as my 1st piority in my life. i dont know what gotten into me to behave this way, i love you too much and i'm afraid of letting you go.

happy national day !

2010-08-09T23:37:00.003+08:00

heylo readers .

i just wanna update what i did today, so woke up at 10am everyday routine as pernormal and then off to pr at 230pm waited for my babylove to finished work. baby ended work at 3pm. then follwed him to changed waited under his voideck for about 45minutes. after which went to 565 waited for all his friends, went to mc cafe at ws and bought double chocolate , okay today outing was kinda =.= . dont want to elaborate, but i was in a no mood type, but certainly i had a great time with love at grandlink and vivo . okay back to the story , everbody gathered at pr mrt station and off to grandlink . karaoke-ing till like about 2 hours . and yesss ! i saw eilaaa ! i miss her, so after karaoke-ing went to raffles city to watched firework and then went to vivo, after that went to vivo to eat as everywhere in town area side are jam packed, tehrefore we all went to vivo, after eating sume berpecah blah blah blah . and yes off to work ! :) okay dahbez. current mood = mendak gyler .
okay dah dah. i'm slepping soon . esok sekolah . selamat malam !
untuk kekasih hatiku, thanks for all the things you bought i appreciate it alot . thats so sweet of him to bought me wallet, eyelines and eyeshadow. cox he know that i've lost my wallet and my eyeliner dah habes. sweet kan dher :) thabkss aloot sayang :D .
so besok pagyy macdonald breakfast with sweetheart ! and yes . wednesday puasa !

ily (Y)

2010-08-08T00:49:00.001+08:00

i wont let other bitches get him cause i'm the one he choose to be with., treasure it and i will protect it :)

2010-08-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

maybe some people arent meant to be in our lives forever. maybe some are just passing by to teach us a lesson.

(Y)

2010-08-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

hey people.

current mood ? = pissed off . buduh punyer budak . cakap baek baek tak nak dgr , orang pekik baru jalan . last last aku yang kene marah . malam malam dah buat orang binget .

currently now i'm doing nothing , i miss baby :'( totally . baby went to jb with his family and i worked for the whole day full shift . because ? because he is not here to take me out , so woke up at 930am , took my shower , ate and went off to hougang to renew my ezlink card :) , went back home and then went off to work. aloot of thing happened today especially with the couple, wont eleborate. i'm wondering what time will baby reached home eyyh ?? tapi yang best nyer i could get through him butttt it will be expensive for us to contact . ;'( . so tmr ? will be w0rking full shift again . harap harap tak busy uh besok . yesyes . i need to find new job. cox my current pay is not enough to support my own expenses , i want retail . any recommendation ? :)

i LOST MY WALLET !!!!!! please returned it back to me !

2010-08-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

OMGGGG! shitnesss ! i just lost my precious wallettt ! inside my wallet there's my identity card and my ezlink card ! how the hell am i going to fork out S$100 to renew my ic ? please to whoever that found my wallet please return it back to me , i need my my ic back ! and yes my ezlink card ! how the hell am i supposed to go to work w/out my ezlink card. it's consession bus and i need it for school and work and for me to go outy, where the hell am i going to fork money to pay for renewing my ezlink and money for consession bus ? i stilll had not pay my phone bills which cost me $61.78 and a summon from watson which is $155 ? i'm super stress with bills,summon,ezlink and ic !!!! shitty shitt ! fucked up !

love & trust

2010-08-05T22:19:00.003+08:00

i'm afraid to trust , but i know somehow if i truly love a person i must learn to trust and yes baby i'm learning :D

2010-08-05T19:53:00.002+08:00

i love my BOYfrIEnd :D
i miss my BOYfriEND :D

currently i'm doing nothing much just updating my blog which has not been updated for days.
oh well oh well . today, what did i do ? nothing much plain nothing , attend lesson at 9am and went back at 11am , lepak all the way with love till 630pm and he went to work and i went home . today was the most crazziest day for me and love . tak habes habes ngan gila gila kita . sweet ah sweet !
hehe , okay . love thanks for today after u gave me a big hug i feel really relieved baby . i sayang you :)

today

2010-07-31T23:54:00.002+08:00

heyhey readers ,

i'm back for more action. :D . wee~ . so basically, today work ended at 4pm , after which meet my love ~ .first headed to grandlink, karaoke for 2 hours , wohoo ! gerek banget . karaoke till 730pm and then headed to town area, had our supper at the heeren macdonald and then went to cineleisure bought famous amos , babylovee blanja . sayang dher ~ . and then howm sweet home :D

love

2010-07-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

i choose to love you in silence, for in silence i find no rejection. i choose to love you in you loneliness, for in your loneliness no ones owns you, but me.

key to my heart

2010-07-30T23:43:00.002+08:00

whenever life seems to drift you away from me, i cant help but cry. you've grown to be part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. they do says love comes and goes, and to that i disagree. so, here's the key to my heart, take it and dont let go of me :D

imy

2010-07-30T23:34:00.002+08:00

when you smile and i know it's not for me and that is when i'll miss you

i miss my syahid

learned from the past, prepare for future :D

2010-07-30T23:22:00.003+08:00

the past is behind learn from it,
the future is ahead, prepare for it,
the present is here , live it .

be with youu:D

2010-07-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

whatever i decided upon i was neglected,

everything i did was classified wrong,

everyone i love walked away from me,

everyone but you.

you were the one stuck by me and said anything i do or choose would be accepted respected by you. because i was the one you loved. :D

i fall for your cute hair the first time i saw you

2010-07-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

i love you

i need you,

i wanna be with you,

i don't wanna lose you and i wont let you slip off from my hand and went to other girls.

no, i wont let that happen and I'll make sure it will never ever happen.

i want to see you every night i sleep wishing me goodnight and every morning i wake up, you were there to wish me good morning.

i hope you feel the same way too.

love,

to syahid sarifi

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so today what did i do ?

firstly wake up at 630am as usual went to bathed meet boyfriend at pasir ris and we went to school together, reached school went to project lesson navigation bars all done :D yeah! attend beo but did not attend pm1 . reason ? cox all my gfs didn't attend :) . after school me & boyfriend went to pasir ris again , wait for boyfriend under his voideck waited for boyfriend to get changed and everything. went to pasir ris ikot boyfriend withdraw money. my boyfriend lost his 40bucks due to his carelessness , he did not took his 40bucks after he withdrawed . see how careless of you ? panic sekejap. sape tak panic oi.. $40 gaji 8jam taw. we went to posb bank to make report at bank. alhamdulilah .. he got his money back. happy for you sayang. :D . remember next time jagan careless lagy tau! :D . dah happy happy aperh lagi pergi GIANT uh kat tamp beli shushi , chocolate merci and then slack at boyfriend nyer workplace, lepas itu balik uh . okay dah . finally my syahid dah top up preeepaaidd . yeah! boleh message message . saya suke :D. hehe . okay dah .

mind me if there's any error , was not in the mood actually but i was bored . :D

rara tyqaa.

i sayang you bie ♥ ♥

2010-07-28T20:41:00.005+08:00

i was simply bored and this is what i did. and yes , i got nothing much to update for today, this days i'm getting quite lazy.

anw, saayaang . i miss you, please top up your prepaid soon, cox been days tak text text with you although kiter hari hari jumpe each other, i tak pernah boring :D if ever just a day we cant get to meet each other, i'll miss you badly :D. i'm sorry if i wrote in my previous post something which you dont like or ashamed of or if it's like something that i'm complaining to other people about you. i only need someone to talk to when you were away & not even talking to me when we had a conflict. i'm not complaining but expressing out my feeling , but what ever happens i will always love you :D . muhammad syahid bin sarifi :D ily.

ihy :D

2010-07-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

hello readers.

short post for today.

currently i'm nothing, on the phone with pacarku . teehee , okay what did i do today ? napfa test , start at 2 and end at 3plus :D , gooddd! after school went to slack with murnie and boyfriend at pasir ris :D . okay, pastu balek. malas nak update panjang panjang . dah . short and simple . :D ,
things are getting out of hand begining to hate. sad, dissapointed, frustrated & angry all in one as a mixture . i'm lost , dont know what's gonna happen next, everything happened for a reason . dont ya understand ? well , me too i dont understand either .
ps: totally random.

be strong dont cry :')

2010-07-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

why should i said sorry to you all the time even when you're the one who made mistake? every time we had conflicts why should i be the only one who console you ? why should i be the only one who call or text you first ? why should i kept calling when you kept rejecting or worst not even picking up the phone ? why should i cry like one of the mad women in the street, when each time we quarreled you didn't want to meet me? why should i beg you ? why should i please you? didn't you realised each time you made mistakes I'll be angry for a while and then i can be as per normal ? but when the time comes to you i made mistakes, it's like very hard for you to forgive me. i feel like a beggar , begging for forgiveness. just why i need to cry all the time ? i want to be strong as i know big girls dont cry. but whatever our conflict is i would still loves you.

life has turn upside down

2010-07-25T18:15:00.002+08:00

i do not know what to say anymore, life is like being unfair with family and friends. how should i explained this ? i have a 16 years old innocent brother i used to know but now he has already changed to someone i do not know at all. his attitude has change from a good to bad and now to the worst ever person . i do not know why has everything change, but definitely me as his sister feel so sad about it .
and yes, t0 my lovely adeq sedare eranie quraisyah please get well soon . she is only 2 years old and been warded to hospital today for swallowing 22 sleeping pills, imagine that ? this is because of an irresponsible aunt of mine that do not know how to take good care of her own daughter. it's not that i want to make everyone to think badly of you but you showwed an bad example =.= . ihy .

2010-07-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

hello reader , okay . i dont think i will post aloot today, cox i'm going to take my shower soon, just came back from w0rk and i'm totally tired. so basically i cant wait for tomorow cox me and my gfs we gonna went out for couples date, harap harap takder sapa sapa paitao uh kay . and yes talking about paitao . my BOYFRIENd paitao me , cox he let me went to school alone but had already promised to go to school with me , cant blamehim cox i asked him to continue sleeping back and in the end boyfriend cant wake up. :( . sooo sad .. and yes , where's my boyfriend right now ???? CHALET =.= , going bak at 3am , i will be bored by then . okay that's about all . enjoy :D

2010-07-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

so basically this is the picture we took in class during project lesson, with my beloved bestfriend Nur Amirah Bte radewan:D. currently now I'm doing this project proposal. I'm so so sleepy right now but still i'm forcing myself not to be lazy and do this project, OMG! i cant believe i fell asleep at babylove shoulder when we were sitting down waiting for the time to past at his workplace, on the way back home i fell asleep in the bus and when i reached home i washed my feet and and when to lay down on the bed and fell asleep again with my uniform still on. i woke up at 9pm and now I'm still yawning . i'm going to get flu soon i think , keep sneezing all the way eversince i woke up, and yes! back to the project proposal i hate it whenever my CA said i have a problem. kepala otak betul. geram uh . haha .

okay so tadi after school when to meet baby up at pasir ris and then send him off to work, and yes baby is now very busy with his work and yes i miss him, saya rindu awak sayang .. :D

besok before werk going out with bestiee Nur Amirah bte Radewan :D. yeahhh ! :D

2010-07-20T22:07:00.004+08:00

see all the picture above ? webcaming and i'm terribly bored, boyfriend working . For today routine , met boyfie and then we went to school together . school started at 1pm end at 5pm, while boyfriend end at 2pm , lesson for PIE was awesome learning about manicure, the correct ways of polishing nails :D, while having this fun period in class, boyfriend texted me and said that he left his bottle of milk coffee inside my bag , just for that bottle of milk coffee he was willingly to met me outside my class. lol . boyfriend sangup ey u ? takpeh bila-bila i ada duit i belikan you a dozen of milk coffee kay ? hahaha ! . okay , so BEO was bored, the lecturer gave nonsensical lame jokes which i cant bother to entertain. last lesson was p0a did ntg, CA release us earlier and then off to meet boyfrien at pasir ris :D . that's all for today.

PS: i dont need someone like you as a friend in my life, childish, hypocrite & attitude problem .

2010-07-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

current mood - pissed off ! and that's the reason why i'm blogging at the very lastminute i wanna sleep. just what can i say, i'm totally fcking pissed with you, i dont want to express it to you . well at the very least i'll express it to blogger , i will feel much relief . i dont understand why u keep on siding her, like eg, whatever ive said about her her you will say something and get back to me. this is not the very first time . i admit this is just a small matter , but dont you know how to console me ? yes, i'm angry . but you know me well i'll cool down a few seconds if you cheer me up .. the way i talk maybe angry towards you but what i want is for you to console me, but what make me more pissed of with you is when you kept asking me whether i want to sleep or not is like you want to avoid talking to me and you said you dont want to talk to me when i give you attitude, and you asked me to text you back when i've cool down . you dont make an effort to text me saying sorry , well i guess i dont need that . would it be better if you could text /call me tmr .

gdnyte , i'll be sleeping soon .